You haven’t heard of me?


Phantom glasses

Posted by Leith in Thoughts

So, I was just catching up on a few older posts on my lovely friend Andrea’s blog, and this one really struck me. Read it, then read on.

For me, it wasn’t that I had glasses, I have my father’s eyes and don’t need them, unlike my siblings. That being said, I was the kid who should have had glasses – and all the rest, for that matter. For some reason, impressions of me were often characterized by stereotypical nerditry (not a word, but possibly should be), sometimes followed by the occasional confused look when people realised that I didn’t actually have them. I had some phantom appearance that I don’t think really went anywhere until probably early high-school, when I suddenly went from counting my friends on one hand to socially trying to understand the varying degrees of friendship that comes from having dozens of them.

I think her comments about her younger self ring very true to me, and I periodically wonder what I would tell myself if I was given the opportunity to go back in time. I think letting myself know that the bullies will (for the most part) grow up, that growing pains are temporary and that I will make amazing connections with people around the world who truly see and love me for who I am would probably be what I would say. I know I will never be able to return to those times and say these things, and that if I did I would possibly grow up to be a different person. My experiences, good and bad, shaped me into who I am through the lessons that I’ve learned.

At the very least, I look at it this way: that desire to inform your younger self is part of being a parent. Thinking like this gives me a new perspective on my own parents, and what they must have been thinking as they tried their best to raise me. I wonder, will I try to pass these lessons on to my own children? Will they listen?

What do you think?



Widgets and walking

Posted by Leith in News,Play

So, starting today it looks like the NaNoWriMo widgets are finally working. On my main page you’ll now see the proper word counter… I’m actually not that fond of the designs, to be honest.

Walking around today was a bit of a challenge. After some broken sleep, I gave serious thought to skipping school for the day since my leg hurt so much. Not being able to bend it to 90 degrees without it hurting makes even sitting on chairs a bit of a challenge. But, somehow I managed. I felt like I was semi crippled and had to use a lot of handrails, but I managed.

Damn it, this probably means I’m going to need surgery on my knee a lot sooner than I was hoping.

Comments are off for this post


Endangered idea and English

Posted by Leith in News

Well, today I skimmed a paper that may shoot one of my research ideas to dust. Need to go over it in more detail tomorrow, but I think I’m going to have to be veeeery convincing if I’m to get anything novel of my own after reading it. I know I can publish from different perspectives (e.g. UI vs. underlying algorithm), but it’s still probably going to be a tough sell, so I might have to move on to another idea.

I also did some English checking of a friend’s paper abstract in exchange for white hot chocolate and general goodwill brownie points. I only realised later on the train ride home that it was probably made with cream and milk and not much else and that was probably why my guts felt like I had swallowed a bag of thumb-tacks.

Seriously? I can have cheese and ice cream just fine now, you’d think my body would have learned to deal with the less processed variety of dairy. >_<

NaNoWriMo for the day was a miserable 1657 words. Not only did I not make my 2000 word target, I didn’t even make the 1667 average-per-day-if-you-want-to-finish target. Close, I guess. Will try and do better tomorrow, although it’s looking like a busy day so I’m not hopeful. Might have to do a big push on the weekend.

Comments are off for this post


Words around and words within

Posted by Leith in News

Walked past a sign today that was only a couple of kanji, and had the realisation that hey, I know those! The first one was the kanji for ‘day’ or ‘sun’, and is a part of tons of words (including ‘Japan’ itself). The second kanji was the one for ‘to stand’. I know that one because it’s pretty simple, and it’s also in the name of the city ward where I live so I have to write it down all the time.

Then I was struck by the realisation that I knew how to read it as well. Knowing the meaning and knowing how to read kanji are two different things, but in this case, the name of the company was “Hitachi” – yay me!

Another day, another NaNoWriMo word count goal met. Chugging along…



Words and nerds

Posted by Leith in News,Thoughts

Another day, another 2000 words written. A little extra actually. As before, you can watch my word count progress here, or friend me on the official NaNoWriMo site – my username is Xandemon. So, my insanity is reaching new levels – when I’m already stressed out from taking on too much, I’m writing a novel this month. Or at least a good chunk of one.

Yes, I’m mental.

Also, today I sat at my dual-screen workstation in the User Interface lab of the Computer Science department at the University of Tokyo, wearing my Google shirt and my NASA polar fleece jacket reading papers about controlling levels of detail for 3D models and I had to wonder – how the hell did I ever get a girlfriend, let alone one that’s going to marry me?

Comments are off for this post

« Previous PageNext Page »